Cardin Nguyen 
September 4, 2009Today was another rough day! Papers were late in the morning again! I didn’t start the route till 4:30 on a Friday! I rushed through the route and finished by 7am. After finishing the route I went home and lay down to sleep. By 11am my father called and ask what’s I’ve been up to because he’s getting worries. Other days I call every few hours to check on my son but today was different. My father instead updated me on what he did. My son woke up really early in the morning at 8. My dad made rice with eggs and soy sauce for my son to eat. After that they went to Starbucks coffee.
After that my father and son went home. He ate Cerro’s with milk! Cool part this time is my father said he is feeding himself. After that he took his nap. When he woke up his uncle Tai and his friends were over. He made Tai friends sit down and watch Cartoon with him. They were tired of watching cartoon so they sneaked out while my son is watching TV. Lucky Tiger and Teddy was over so my son and father went with them around in the front to play his Buzz Light year bubble maker. After talking with my dad I asked to speak with my son. He picked up the phone and said “Beo Beo (his friend)”. It sound like he is trying to tell me that he’s playing with Beo right now and don’t want to talk. I quickly said “ok ok, dad love you too. Mommy love you too”. By listening to my son over the phone I can tell he has grown so much the last two weeks. Since I dropped him off at grandpa last Thursday I realize he grew and a lot more responsive. It’s probably because of his sleeping habit. I asked my dad when my son sleeps now. My dad said he tries to make my son sleep around 9 but doesn’t sleep till 10. That’s how he wakes up so early with my father in the morning. I’m currently saving another paycheck till my father should come up here with me. Due to landlords and managers want first last and some deposit it put a huge pressure on me so I cant have my son be with me. Worse case I can’t leave it at his mother house because she works long hours and comes home late after parties. Leaving my son with my in-laws is worse. My mother in law is sick and have a hard time sustaining herself already so its tough for my mother in law to take care of my kid correctly. So I’m force to leave my son with my father where he’s safe and well fed. That’s all it matters to a father is keeping my son safe.
Talking with my father I got up and went over to Al house to help him install his Windows 7. About 1:30pm I went over to 32nd St to help Geary with his Comcast marketing campaign. I borrowed 1k off him so I could pay for my retainer fee so I’m working to pay that off. After about 3 hours of that I went to IRS to check up on my Carry Back returns. About 4:40 I went to the library to check up on parenting. I came across a book “Father to son: life lesson on raising a boy” that caught my attention. It gave me insights such as being a part of my son but not controlling. When I was young my father said a boy shouldn’t cry. But instead in this book it tells me that it’s ok for a boy to cry. When I reflect this back to myself I realize crying does make you feel good. I cry all the time to make myself feel better. So I’m going to teach my son its ok to cry.
After the visit to the library I went home to finish off the Hawaiian BBQ that I brought yesterday. That 8 dollars BBQ lasted me two days. They gave you a lot of food comparing to that Dragon Chinese fast food house at Fred Myers. That Fred Myers place was the same price was the BBQ one but less food.
While I survive my day I realize that I am being hurt from this divorce. But the person that is hurt most is my son. He is our future and a brain that can contribute to this community. What my wife and I do influence his personality for the rest of his life. So I realize I’m going to try to work with my ex-wife Tran as much as I can. But with the fear of her going nuts I’m just going to ignore talking with her till my lawyer say its safe to talk to her. <sigh> life sure gets harder and harder. Let’s just hope I can make it easier for my son so he doesn’t have to go through such a hard time. Ahhh! I’ve been taking care of my son since he was born and now with this divorce going through the responsibilities seem like it has triple what it was before. But I have to admit its a lot easier than before. I’m not being beat up or giving up my paycheck that limits what I can teach and do with my son.
well anyways thanks for reading guys! That’s my day! I’ll see you another day when I feel like typing. Take care guys! Pray for the best for me!