Cardin Nguyen 
April 27, 2006Dear Journal,
well I guess its time to start typing how things are going with me. I got a new gf but then nothings going well again. But this time its alot harder then last. This one requires so much out of me. Theres alot of things that I cannot satisfy. I dont got the money that she wants. She make me feel useless even with the money that I make now. Though I make 14k a month to spend but then its just not enough for her. I give her 2k a month just to stay home to cook but then I have to give her gambling money cuz she keep on complaining that bellingham is really boring. If I dont then she wont travel back to olympia with me. Its really hard to finish off the word one word being a good son.
Every relationship theres always a hardship that is attached to it. Each relatioship I really regret and miss this and that. First I missed the niceness of the first relationship because of it sweet love. Then second I miss the way she dont ask too much but then theres alot of things I can acomplsih for her. Third one she ask so much but then others are so perfect. I dont think I can survive this one. Another hard relationship that I have to go through. Honest earth to god theres no way we can actually get a relationship that is perfect. Theres always something wrong. My salary cant be enough for this relationship.This relationship is less then a year and I’m already given up. I honestly dont feel like dating ever again because its like a cycle of non stop requests.
It hurts. I miss the love, I miss the low income living, and I miss the food.
if just we can combine all three of them into one then its just perfect.
I give up.
Cardin Nguyen