Final Divorce

  Cardin Nguyen        December 22, 2009

On Monday Dec. 21, 2009 I recieved my final divorce orders. I’m very happy that it’s finally over. I don’t have to deal with the issues anymore. Finally felt the freedom again. Anyways its the best Christmas present I got this year so far. Everything being over and done with. I’m also planning to move to Florida. I’m going to Florida again to check the condition to see if its a good place to move down there. The other issue that I will be facing is if I ever move far away from Bellingham, Ms. Ngoc-Tran Nguyen is going to try to tie me down to one location. Its such a sad world isn’t it? Well if I do decide to move I’m going to try my best to go through modification of the divorce discreed and see if we can negociate on 2-3 days visitation every other month that way I am not tie down in one place. Ms. Ngoc-Tran is very evil if she tries to make me stick to Bellingham, Wa only. Continue reading →

Admire Other Happiness

  Cardin Nguyen        December 9, 2009

Today I’m a bit happy today to see my cousin Thao Hoang sent me her wedding pictures. Sometimes when you look at other pictures you are jealous that they seem to be happy together. But behind the frame of pictures theres alot of hidden problems that I don’t know. But all that I care I’m happy to see that smile on Thao’s face. After thao sending me her wedding pictures, Trieu and I went to the mall to hang out. Made me feel like a kid agian! Ahhhhhhh Continue reading →

My Wrongs – Có khi yêu

  Cardin Nguyen        December 7, 2009

Ok I dont know what to write in this journal so its going to be simple and short. Sorry to leave you guys out of this English readers. This journal is for the Vietnamese readers. Transilating this poem would be hell so I’m going skip it. But for the last few days I have been doing alot of thinking. I have taking my son out to the library alot. I have been reading him stories. Of course I’m waiting everyday for my final divorce discree to arrive here. Beside that everything is doing fine! Ok thats it for this journal.

My Wrongs – Có khi yêu

Có khi thương, mình nghĩ là một sự sai lầm
nếu như không thương, làm sao hiểu biết sự sai lầm
nếu như không thương, làm sao tạo một trái tim chân thật

Tôi đã hiểu lầm chữ yêu, bởi vì tôi sự không có người yêu tôi thật
nếu như không yêu, làm sao hiểu biết gì là thương.
nên bây giờ tôi thương, tôi yêu thầm lặng một hình bóng cô gái

Tôi dừng đây với 2 bàn tay trong túi
nhìn trời và đất, chúc phúc cho những thương yêu sai lầm
và cám ơn đã cho tôi biết rõ về gì là thương, gì là yêu

Tôi dừng đây cầm điện thoại và chờ
Tôi chờ tiếng gió kêu “Trong oi, đến giờ uống thuốc”
hằng ngày như huong, chờ lệnh người yêu bảo

Tại vì tôi thương nên thời gian đi chậm
Tại vì quái vật nên tôi tức giận ma` ghen bóng ghen gió
Tại vì người chưa thương tôi, nên không biết khi yêu đau đến đâu

-viết tặng cho một cô be tôi thương.

Background Song: “Oh Come Oh Come – Tiu De Haan ” – (12/7/2009) – this song is orignal from Enya but was remixed by Tiu De Haan. I like the remix alot better. This song is very hypnotizing and trance-like. Sometimes you can’t resist a relationship even though you know its wrong, but the attraction and love is too strong to resist. Có khi yêu, mình nghĩ là một sự sai lầm, nếu như không yêu làm sao hiểu biết sự sai lầm.

Never Return & Never Look Back – “Sẽ Không Quay về Sẽ Không Nhìn Lai

  Cardin Nguyen        November 29, 2009

It’s been close to two weeks that my life has stable out. I’ve been doing ok with my son and my thinking has matured up. Last two weeks I been saving up and planning my trip down to Florida to see Co^ Minh and a best friend in Miami. Leo is a friend that I met back in 2002 and been great friend since. We only seen pictures of each other but never met in person. Leo has always been true to me as a friend. Even though we have never met in person except hear his voices. Thats one thing that I like to point out in life. Sometimes people who are close to you are a bunch of liers and never true to you. I have been stabbed by friends and relative but Leo …….. I have to admit sometimes people who are true to you are those who stuck around with you since the begining. Leo has always been there for me even though we couldn’t meet in person. It’s amazing how out of all the people you know and only person you can trust is the person that you don’t know. Leo is like the other brother that I haven’t met. It’s the same feeling when you stand next to your blood brother knowing that he is your brother. Opposite of that is Leo being my distance brother. Even though living this new life is tough but having someone to love makes it sure easier.

Trieu and I got to know each other since I got more time to pay attention to every bits of aspects of him. I watched the way he changed his attitude. I tried to teach him how to act. I tried to adopt some discipline teaching him if he does something wrong he’ll have to face the wall. It’s tough at this age because every single time he throws things on the ground I made him stand against the corner. As soon I force him to stand there he turns around and he hugs me and cry which makes it a lot harder to stand up to his baby acts. I’m a bit happier now that my son eats more. After figuring what he likes it makes it easier. He likes sweets so feeding him with a little suguar and salt mixed food inproves his intake. A picture in my mind that keep repeat is the way my son acts so much like sponge bob raising his hand running. He loves sponge bob! Oh god I just think that show is stupid but he like is so much watching it constantly. I tried to make him watch Barneys, but instead he cries till he get his spongebob!
Getting back into the balll game is a bit harder then I thought with the responsibiltiies that is left on my hands. As I speak daily with Linh I began to love ♥ Linh more for the facts that she is truthful making my heart changes. Her hearts force me to be truthful to myself and her. Ahh tired typing now so I’m going to VIDEO!
I decided since I walk out I will never look back. If I look back I will not understand what I have gone through! So Don’t worry guys hang tight. I will keep trying till I get up!

Ai cung phai trai mot su dau thuong nao. Cardin se khong quay ve va khong nhin lai. Chuyen xua da qua con bay gio la mot noi co don ko the ta. Moi dem nam om phone ma cho mong mot nguoi phone. Hen xui cho mong phone ma khong thay phone. Hen Xui moi thay txt message! Dauuuu kho qua!!!! Cho tui chit di, dung cho tui cho

Video 7 – “Sẽ Không Quay về Sẽ Không Nhìn Lại” (DL) – Vietnamese Video
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xbb…-nhin-l_people

Weight Loss

  Cardin Nguyen        November 20, 2009

 have to admit lately I’ve been losing so much weight not eatting correctly. I been staying up lately and taking care of my son during the day. It’s a very tough job realizing its a family effort and not a single man effort. My son Trieu eating habbits are tough. Though it appears that we travel alot but thats not the facts. I actually travel to get help from an old friend. Everyday waking up after programing I take my son to the library and read him books everyday. I bought this life into this world so I’m willing to take the responsibility. It appears easier on TV and shows then it is in real life. Continue reading →

chìa khoa thi khong dang gia bao nhieu nhuong tho gian thi khong còn = Key is worthless

  Cardin Nguyen        November 13, 2009

chìa khoá thi không đáng giá bao nhiêu nhưng thời gian thi không còn = Key is worthless but life we don’t have much of it left.
Well lately i been traveling back and forth from Bellingham to Seattle nearly every 2-3 days. I spent a half hour or so everyday talking with Thao. I met up with her a few days ago too. Quite happy that anh Long and Chi Thao happy. Her son Cody is about the same age as my son. He’s a bit younger but he’s a lot bigger then my son. Continue reading →

“Hên xui” mot cau tra loi 2 nghia

  Cardin Nguyen        November 8, 2009

“Hên xui” một câu trả lời 2 nghĩa
Its a phrase that repeat constantly in my head over the past few days. Every single time I cannot answer a question that pops up! I think I’m poison! The past few days I been restructuring my life. I been dealing with Geary project that I’ll be releasing in the new few days here! Beside that I been taking care of my son. Taking him to work on serveral occastions. The challenges isn’t raising Trieu, but the challenge is figuring out what to feed him. With the habit that his mother has trained him since he was at birth its difficult to give him normal foods! arrgh…. Boy! without my parent’s, Linh, Thao, and Thu giving him a hand I would be in a ditch that I cannot climb out.
Now lets get back to the prhase above now that I know what I’ve been up to. The phrase represent me lately! I’m confuse in my life now. I dont want to be the partier nor the drunk baster on the street making my self worse. I adapted Hen Xui ……. kekkee ..First person that I heard this off is a very special friend for years. It’s about time to reconnect to old friends that I have lost over the years. College times are the best time that we can connect to friends. But because I was so poison with my ex potion I lost all my time where I could make friends. Now i’m alone with a son in my hand trying to find my ways. Ahhhhhh ok nevermind I’ll stop writing. This journal isn’t going anywhere. I’ll see you guys next journal when I know what I want to write. But Hen Xui, next time we’ll meet again.

Now That HURTS!

  Cardin Nguyen        November 4, 2009

Now that everything os over! I’m quite happy! I talk peace! YAY! Well anyways my son been really sick all the time. Sad to see him sick but Linh been helping me take care of him. Boy if I did it alone it would be really tough. Sad to see my son has all kind of sickness. I’ve been taking him to the doctors often too. I’m waiting for DSHS to approve his medical coupon as well. His mother been harrassing his medical coupon so its been tough for me. It’s hard asking for medical assistance Well beside all that my life been great! Though with all the lawyer fees I’m running short on money. What bugs me is that Tran keep complaing about money. She doesn’t have to worry about anything at all. I’m taking the full responsibiltieis for my son and getting his needs met. When she talks she tends to blame that I can’t meet my son needs and then I asked how shes doing….thats when she said she has to worry alot and don’t make enough money. That’s pure lies! For god shake we’re seperated and divorced why lie? It’s our son here! Oh well I’m not asking anything but just don’t lie infront of me. It doesn’t help at all. I dont need to hear about it. God! A-men! But beside the hate that I have against Tran I’m glad we can still talk like human being! It’s good to keep good communication! Deep down inside I hate that she used me for money but meh thats the past. what matters to me right now is keeping a normal communication so my son won’t get affected. That way he still have the same love he has for me for his mother. Now I gotta work toward blending that love with Linh. Linh been helping me out alot. I’m thinking of allow her to be Me noi. Yup yyup…substitute what Tran can’t give at this moment. ..hmmmmmm I gotta find one of these days to ask Linh if she willing to accept Trieu as M.e noi (mother) . well anyways later guys!

Gone and Moving On

  Cardin Nguyen        November 3, 2009

It’s been bugging me the last week about what I had to go through. But I realize its just the process of life. I have lost alot in my life because I thought I could change the impossible. But I realize that people have their own ways of doing things. You can’t be forced to doing things that you don’t want. I choosed “Mua Thuy Tinh” by Ung Hoang Phuc because it tells what I am feeling at this present moment. I’m happy that now everything is over making me see what I have to do now. Now that I have Linh helping me take care of my son I’m happy to see that they are happy together. Though she may not love Trieu like her own son but oh well. He’s not her son but atleast she tries. Continue reading →

Happy 27th Birthday to ME

  Cardin Nguyen        October 25, 2009

Well whats up guys! Guess what today is my birthday! Yay! I’m a year older! Lately i been pretty busy with my life. I been sleeping alot, watch crap load hours of Phim Tau, and of course talked massively on the phone. I spent like 3+ hours per day talking on the phone Bai (Hoa’s Husband) and Linh. Oh Lord it becomes a bad habit! First thing I wake up I would call them and talk with them. I would spend countless hours talking with them over the phone in the morning and late in the evening. That’s how I survived these days in this boring town of Bellingham. I’m not from here so all my resources are gone. I’m heading back to Seattle and Olympia! Well so far I dont know what to do today at all. But I’m going to make the best of it. Later this evening my son and I will head to Canada to celebrate my brithday! Well thats it guys I spent crap loads of hours talking to Bai and Linh so just wanna let you guys know i’m surviving. Continue reading →